Mai Brane Hertz

[shanmonster]

I suspect I've been suffering from a migraine for the last week. I feel hungover. Lights, noises, and sudden movements make my insides flinch. I feel like I'm floating around in someone else's dream and I find myself staring at everyday things with a blank fascination. I skipped this morning's classes, and then managed to show up for the afternoon. I had a test in my jewellery rendering class. I'm pretty sure I passed, but I'm also pretty sure I fucked up one of my drawings. I think I did a one-point perspective drawing of a cylinder rather than the two-point drawing that was requested.

Despite the ambiguity of my state of reality, I managed to set another stone and therefor have all my homework done for tomorrow. It's not perfect by any means, but it was the best I could do considering every blow with the hammer reverberated through my gelatinous cerebellum.

When I got home, Scroffy the pigeon was nowhere to be seen. I stood out on the balcony, and a flurry of whiff-whiff-whiffing feathers exploded at my head. He'd been in the windowsill, and was orbitting my head like a downy grey satellite. He finally landed at my feet and cooed insistently. I scooped him up in my hands. Pigeons are much smaller than they look. Their plumage camoflages a very slim, light body. He let me hold him for a while, then grumbled at me and delicately shook a wing. I set him down and went to get him a cracker. I crumbled it up for him on his plate, and he hopped excitedly around, bashing his beak down hard on each morsel.

When I finished giving him the cracker, I came back inside and sat at my computer. He flew back up to my windowsill and perched. He stares at me and sings every now and then.

I need to work on my homework for next week, but my mind hurts. Words make little sense to me. I can write, but I cannot think. I'll try to read, but I fear the words will evaporate into untranslatable bursts of black ink: uninterpretable Rorschach blots.

I both look forward to and dread the Freaky Scene performance this weekend. I want to do it, because it's great fun, but at the same time, I fear it will wring out what little energy I have left, leaving me a dessicated husk.

Even still, husks can be rehydrated.

Take a look at the following photos from HEMF 8 as taken by Pipsqueak.

I copied the one of me in mid-dance, because I have a burgeoning ego.

Comments

[fourcorners.livejournal.com]

Wow, you look hot enough to eat (just a figure of expression)

Your pigeon friend sounds so cute. I can't believe he's so groovily affectionate like that, and that he actually sings! I have new respect for the pigeon species now, thanks to you

[montecristo.livejournal.com]

I'd go see a doctor if I were you. Maybe it's just stress. Hell, it probably is just stress, but what if it isn't? Those symptoms sound kind of scary. You wouldn't want to ignore it if its something more serious, like a tumor or something. Week-long migraines sound really weird. I'd at least call the doctor and ask about it, if nothing else. Hope you're okay.

[badcat42077.livejournal.com]

Beautiful.
Is the penny bra as heay as it looks?

[shanmonster.livejournal.com]

I've been to gazillions of doctors, including a bunch of specialists. I take migraine medication three times a day every day, courtesy of my neurologist. When I get migraines, they last for a month or two at a time. They rarely cause pain, though. I get very confused and, if I'm particularly unlucky, lose a big portion of my vision.

I've been checked for tumours and multiple sclerosis a pile of times, but it all pares down to something called migraine status aura, which isn't quite like the classic migraine most people think of.

The way I figure, I got this migraine because my sleep pattern was sorely disrupted last week. A lack of sleep seems to be one of my triggers.

[shanmonster.livejournal.com]

Heavier! It weighs about three pounds, I'd guess.

[shanmonster.livejournal.com]

Thanks, and don't thank me--thank Scroffy!

[badcat42077.livejournal.com]

Good grief. I have enough trouble hauling around my beads & sequins. :)

[shanmonster.livejournal.com]

It's actually quite comfortable. However, shoulder shimmies are a bit daunting. I feel like I'm experiencing the terrors of being big-busted when the momentum kicks in.

[badcat42077.livejournal.com]

*L*
I'd have to agree. I have to watch how much shoulder goes into a shimmy because of everything that's along for the ride.

You spin me right 'round baby...

[prolixfootle.livejournal.com]

That's almost the outfit you wear when i envision you dancing. Except your hairs up, you have a diaphanous veil and you're always in mid-twirl, or whatever it's called.

Hope things get back to normal soon...

Re: You spin me right 'round baby...

[shanmonster.livejournal.com]

I used to dance with veils all the time, but rarely do so anymore. I'm ok with a veil, but pretty sad in comparison to my old dance partner. So I've specialized in other areas. I am, however, still keen to work with double rectangular veils. I want to make myself a couple of silk veils to work with, and then, if I get studio space, I'll be able to practice.

I hope things get back to normal soon, too. I hate it when my brain goes on vacation.

[montecristo.livejournal.com]

Yow! I really don't know what else to say about that, never having had a migraine myself. I guess I can say that I hope that it doen't last too long and that you feel better soon.

[shanmonster.livejournal.com]

You and me both!

[polymexina.livejournal.com]

you are awesome! :D

[shanmonster.livejournal.com]

Thank you, kindly, ma'am!

[snowy-kathryn.livejournal.com]

Rock on Shan! I love that skirt and belt combination. Love, love, LOVE! I wish I could go see your performance this weekend. :( I feel so unsupportive, but I already committed to my one 'social event' this week: Spectrum's Halloween showing of The Rocky Horror Picture Show. I'll be sending you good-luck-vibes in between my school work though. ;)

[shanmonster.livejournal.com]

Okey dokey! Let's do the time warp again, 'kay?

And I like the skirt/belt combo, too. I can't wait to finish my new belt and see what outfit it makes shine!